Sunlight’s Not My Favorite Light

As long as you think your past is bad you must be improving. – Louis C.K.

 

 

Good morning,

A lot has happened since I have last posted here, and all of it in a good way! I have decided to change my attitude, because for the last couple of months I have thrown myself into this emotional depression from being “lonely”. I’ve realized that I’m not alone, I want a romantic relationship but I have many relationships that all support me. I also had an epiphany from listening to the intro to a song of all things. To quote the song, “Do you know why wealthy people that have everything are still sad and poor people who have little can be happy? It’s because the people with little are grateful for what they have.” Now that hit me, I am a 20 year old man who has a stable job, am financially stable, drives a sports car, has a dream setup, can feasibly purchase what I want, and have many friends and things to do when I want to. Sometimes we all just have to take a step back from reality to see what we all really have. Sure life has it’s high’s and low’s but that is just what happens when you ride the wave of life (Suh Dude). Let me get into a few key things that have happened over the past bit.

~Mr. Fox

Plaguing Troubles

The winds blow calmly today and so do my spirits, I feel as if I am in purgatory where nothing is good, nothing is bad and I have nothing to look forward to in the near future. Maybe it’s a curse, maybe it’s a blessings, but I’ll be damned if I’m not lonely. The more I try to ignore relationships blossoming around me, the more I realize their presence. Sort of like a forbidden fruit that I know I can’t have but is still nice for me poke at every once in awhile. I wouldn’t say I’m depressed, just that I have a melancholic aura around myself that is getting more and more dense. I need to find out how to break myself out of this mindset and become content with being by myself.

~Mr. Fox

(Sorry for not giving a quote and not posting for a bit)

Lost Intentions

For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow. -Ecclesiastes 1:18

 

It is rare that I quote the bible due to my lack of knowledge on the book, or rather my willful ignorance that comes with me refusing to argue something as opinionated as religion. I have accepted that with knowledge and wisdom comes great pain, not for the outside world, but for one’s own faults. Knowing you have the ability to fix yourself but being too lazy/weak to begin the process.