The winds blow calmly today and so do my spirits, I feel as if I am in purgatory where nothing is good, nothing is bad and I have nothing to look forward to in the near future. Maybe it’s a curse, maybe it’s a blessings, but I’ll be damned if I’m not lonely. The more I try to ignore relationships blossoming around me, the more I realize their presence. Sort of like a forbidden fruit that I know I can’t have but is still nice for me poke at every once in awhile. I wouldn’t say I’m depressed, just that I have a melancholic aura around myself that is getting more and more dense. I need to find out how to break myself out of this mindset and become content with being by myself.
(Sorry for not giving a quote and not posting for a bit)